I Have Cancer, But Cancer Does Not Have Me

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The day was last Thursday…….the place was the chemo room at my doctor’s office….the bubbles floated happily through the air, the music made you want to dance, and the whole room celebrated in elation. Today was the strangers last day…..her last day of chemo. How happy I was for her, because she had a new beginning, a clean slate. Every person in the room had a different story to tell. For her it was one of joy and relief that she could start again.

 I had woken up that morning with a giant knot in my stomach. A knot that was filled with uncertainty of what the future held. With my tumor markers on the rise, and prayers surrounding me from loved ones, my husband and I went to see my doctor. I stepped into the bathroom before my appointment and raised my hands to God and said, “No matter what happens, the only thing that matters is my relationship with You.  I give You everything else that is going to happen today.”  Into exam room we went, the air felt so thick you could cut it with a knife. Then I heard the words, the words that lifted the air in the room….the tumor markers had dropped. My heart sang with praise. The markers where still not as low as what they should be but, they had greatly decreased. The Father lifted a great weight off my shoulders. Things were not perfect, but God was with us and that’s all that mattered.


Once the bubbles had floated to the ground, and the merry band of four left the room, I took a seat in my brown chair with the pink pillow, and waited to receive my infusion of Zometa. As the thoughts from my doctor’s appointment ran through my mind I began to think…. no matter what trials we go through….no matter how much we might like to change a certain situation, God is always there. That’s exactly how it is with everything in life. When we realize this, when we come to the knowledge that His constant presence is always with us, we then need to come to a place of surrender.  We need to come to an understanding of a key point… He wants us to give it all up to Him, no matter what the outcome. To know that the only thing that matters is a deep and personal relationship with Him.


My husband stated to me during my doctor’s appointment that, “I have cancer, but cancer does not have me.”  The reason why it doesn’t have me, is because of my relationship with the Lord. Whatever situation you might be facing, don’t let it control you. Don’t let it take over you life. Give your problems over to God, and trust Him with the outcome.


Allowing God to be your main focus in life, allows you to overcome anything. It turns your thoughts towards the truth of  “We can do it.” The we being you and God. Philippians 4:13 says it perfectly,  “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”  Whatever burden your carrying today, allow freedom to come into your life by giving it all over to our Savior. Give Him the power in your life, to give you strength to face today, and all of your tomorrows.

 
Today I am linking up with Multitudes on Mondays, giving God the glory, while counting 100 blessings in 2012.

 

92. my husband’s kind heart
93. songs that bring me comfort
94. faith
95. Jesus being with me
96. good test results
97. talking with my doctor
98. my favorite chemo nurse Emily
99. financial miracles
100. spending the morning with my family at the mall
101. new books from friends.
102. silence

103. an email from a very dear friend.

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